looking back on the time......

looking back on the time i had known love appreciating it and being so much in love... i forgotten one thing.....myself.... i forget how much i would lose myself being in a relationship....i can be persistent, loving,caring,posessive all at the same time previously.... right now im ending all that but have anything ever changed? the answer, no..... nothing change..... but me.....i go round and round in circle trying to find myself ...... for all i know i wanna see myself grow...... did i grow i wonder......Growing up, finding a bf ,a love ,a life,a dream is not as easy as ABC.....woah .... its difficult than maths....(hehe) but seriously.today i started to think what if im back with my ex bf.... would it be the same.... would anything feel different..... would i be more appreciated.... but i dont know the answer to that question....people makes life sucks.... that we of course but sometimes i think its god who did all this..... (FATE) u know..... but it takes too much of me....esp... the love section.... im like totally drained out.... kinda sick about love being in love.... but then i want it..... sooooooooooo much.....i wanted to be needed ... wanted to be loved ..... would i ever get it?

ONLY GOD KNOWS.......