im tired of love

haiz sick and tired of telling people who i am and what i wanna be. seem to me no one will understand and really care for me. even when theres so much pain and sufferings around why are we still having a happy life.life is damn short. with austin and everyone else around me it made me realise that i lead the most meaningful life. do my own stuff and live my own life.could someone just tell me why im a human? why do i need another human? is it love or just a simple lust?simple isnt it that humans would always be humans and you are just you. loving yourself more than anyone else is the greatest gift of all. austin,i still love you but then i just could not bear that im suffering. i love you"They say, 'A picture is worth a thousand words,' but when I saw yours, I was speechless."