Why do I have to go through this?

Oh dearie me I have to go through every problems I have alone.Sharing with friends are not enough, I need someone or something to tell me and motivate me all the way through but no one wants to share the sadness and joys with me maybe it still not the time.

Sometimes I just wish some guy would sweep me of my feetand make me the HAPPIEST LADY on Earth. Just could not bear taking everything people say or do towards me.Feels like killing myself at times but no... never.Why should I kill myself? Why should I keep my problems to myself? Why I cant share with someone ..... ANYONE? Well at times I wanna be with my ex boyfriend again but at times my ex boyfriend just dont feel he way I still feel. You know what? I am still in love with him... yeah with him... dont believe me try an ask me a question about my ex and I surely will answer you.Well life full of ups and downs.Maturity do not make u human it just make you old.

So Long No See

Hi peeps,

So long since im been around here to tell my life stories hehe.... Been through a lot of stuff... gd or bad. I do not know what I am capable to do already. Sometimes I feel like I wanna die ... too much pressure for me to take.. I felt weak and miserable. I need someone anyone to help me pass through thick and thin with me.Im really in need of a love that PURE and REAL.Please help me god make me strong and pull my strength together.

long lonely road

hey ya guys, been long since i posted something here.so sorry been bz dealing with others problems(family affairs) i put myself into a lot of stress... yeah me... stress hehe...

once my late dad told me he need not worry about me and my decision making and asked me to take care of my mum.... i mean thats where my stress are from.... mum a great best pal.... seriously she help alot but something are never meant to be said or done you know...youre just stucked rite in the middle and its up to u to make a decision....

after all this while i learnt that no one is better than u cause u are a complete creation of Gods grace.... all i have to say to him up there, thanx, thank you for showing me a lot, lot of pointers and im surely sticking to it...

yeah today i met up with my fren,shona and from planning to get shoes we watch movies.... the ideas are so far off but yeah the frostbite aint bitten at all so dudes dont watch it not worth ur cent ait.... bub bye

The dream date.......at last

Woah its been long since i went out with a guy after 1 year being single....hehe im so missing it.... hehe.... anyway the few days back i been busy and dated my ex bf for a movie, the X men 3......... i was shocked when he asked me out..... shocked and excited at the same time....... yeah .... like its been so lonely going out all alone or spending time with my family.... that all not with a guy.... sob sob..... but now im so ok like getting through this very well......To my ex bf its been great having enough time sped with u.... even if it not an actual date.... hehe.... thanx....

looking back on the time......

looking back on the time i had known love appreciating it and being so much in love... i forgotten one thing.....myself.... i forget how much i would lose myself being in a relationship....i can be persistent, loving,caring,posessive all at the same time previously.... right now im ending all that but have anything ever changed? the answer, no..... nothing change..... but me.....i go round and round in circle trying to find myself ...... for all i know i wanna see myself grow...... did i grow i wonder......Growing up, finding a bf ,a love ,a life,a dream is not as easy as ABC.....woah .... its difficult than maths....(hehe) but seriously.today i started to think what if im back with my ex bf.... would it be the same.... would anything feel different..... would i be more appreciated.... but i dont know the answer to that question....people makes life sucks.... that we of course but sometimes i think its god who did all this..... (FATE) u know..... but it takes too much of me....esp... the love section.... im like totally drained out.... kinda sick about love being in love.... but then i want it..... sooooooooooo much.....i wanted to be needed ... wanted to be loved ..... would i ever get it?

ONLY GOD KNOWS.......

Wonderful wonderous day

hehe... today..... realli realli tired from all the day out activities with my nieces.... seem so fun but yet tired....i feel like screaming my name and just think think of nothing but myself.... i dont know whats into me but all i know is that im free today from all the trouble in my head.... i miss my friend so yesterday we met up at bugis.... and catch the favourite movie everyone been talking about... guess? davinci babeh yeahh..... hehe i got it.... woah the tickets are sellling outlike goreng pisang.... butlucky for us all we had the tixs but guess what time our show is at?? 950pm..... and it ended at 1255am...... hehe...... its soooo cool.....

ps: mail ka kurang ajr eh.... buli aku aje.... aku ketuk kau baru tau>>>>...muax

Good morning Singapore

Hey peeps whats up? first thing first...... i lost about 2 kg without diet... and how i do that? hehe(fell ill for 3 days) thats about it..... no appetite to eat that why.... but today is a new day.... the sky are rising high in the air... as i look to the sun....what should i do today.....? woah my mum is my schedule so usually she keep me updated about what im supposed to do..... so today i be out like the whole day....now im waiting for my friend to confirm whether shes going out with me....and for my ex bf.... please be patience life is so short o filled it only with misery...... im sorry about what you're going through but i hope it thought u how to be a better man.....as for me its still the old same thing i think.... hehe with life and days filled with children all day long.....