Why do I have to go through this?

Oh dearie me I have to go through every problems I have alone.Sharing with friends are not enough, I need someone or something to tell me and motivate me all the way through but no one wants to share the sadness and joys with me maybe it still not the time.

Sometimes I just wish some guy would sweep me of my feetand make me the HAPPIEST LADY on Earth. Just could not bear taking everything people say or do towards me.Feels like killing myself at times but no... never.Why should I kill myself? Why should I keep my problems to myself? Why I cant share with someone ..... ANYONE? Well at times I wanna be with my ex boyfriend again but at times my ex boyfriend just dont feel he way I still feel. You know what? I am still in love with him... yeah with him... dont believe me try an ask me a question about my ex and I surely will answer you.Well life full of ups and downs.Maturity do not make u human it just make you old.